At a Loss

I am feeling defeated. I have not gained any followers in months. I have been stuck at around 740 followers and haven’t been going anywhere. I don’t want to admit that followers makes a impact on me but it does. I was on such a good roll up until now. I used to average 100 followers a month and now nothing. I’m not sure what I am doing wrong or what I was doing right but it sucks. As soon as I made a instagram tracker it all went to hell. I see it as a curse. As if I got the slightest confidence and it just got shut down like that... I think what really has me bummed is thinking it could take me somewhere. I feel like such an idiot to think it could take it somewhere.

Please don’t get me wrong. I am thankful to get even 700 followers but it’s really me with my depression, self consciousness, and self worth issues. It is a bit distorted. I am still working on myself...forever and always.