I am currently off the sertraline cold turkey as of last week. Let me tell you, it has been a roller coaster. I have been dealing with constant headaches, nausea, dizziness, fatigue, anger, confusion, loss of memory, and sensitivity. It almost makes you wonder why you even tried it in the first place. I am "paying" for it now.
I didn't actually look up the withdrawal symptoms until now (Sertraline Withdrawal Symptoms). It's good to know I am not dying from something else entirely (bright side). Many moons ago, I took prozac for a short period of time and I don't remember how long or when I got off it but I don't recall withdrawal symptoms. Then again, I am no spring chicken anymore. At least everything that I am going through makes sense now. I am not THAT crazy! 😆💫😬😤😖
To be honest, even though I struggled with a serious bout of depression, I still can't help but feel that maybe it wasn't that bad? I guess I am still trying to differentiate it. I just feel like maybe I have been depressed for a long time that I am not even sure if it really is depression? I have spent practically my whole life of low self-esteem, being emotional, overthinking, etc. Could I be delusional to think that I am not depressed but I am or I am normal and someone is telling me I am depressed? It is all very confusing.
At my low point, I just wanted something to help me be "normal." But what is "normal"? It's all relative. I went to a psychiatrist because I thought I had a mental illness (other than depression). All my life, I have felt like I have been in a state of a hazy dreamlike mindset. I am in reality but it doesn't feel like reality to me? Not sure if that makes sense. From row, row, row your boat "life but a dream" is exactly how I feel but it's hard to explain....zombielike? So lucky me....not only and I still in an never-ending dream state, now I have constant headaches, nausea, dizziness, fatigue, anger, confusion, loss of memory, and sensitivity on top of that....Grreat....😑
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