At a Loss

I am feeling defeated. I have not gained any followers in months. I have been stuck at around 740 followers and haven’t been going anywhere. I don’t want to admit that followers makes a impact on me but it does. I was on such a good roll up until now. I used to average 100 followers a month and now nothing. I’m not sure what I am doing wrong or what I was doing right but it sucks. As soon as I made a instagram tracker it all went to hell. I see it as a curse. As if I got the slightest confidence and it just got shut down like that... I think what really has me bummed is thinking it could take me somewhere. I feel like such an idiot to think it could take it somewhere.

Please don’t get me wrong. I am thankful to get even 700 followers but it’s really me with my depression, self consciousness, and self worth issues. It is a bit distorted. I am still working on myself...forever and always.

Coming Around

I completed 2 challenges this month and this time without posting daily. I think it helps and also a little less stressful. I think I have been posting once a day or every 2 days so I am still relevant. Just trying to keep going and get back in the groove.

My son decided to make his own challenge. I was really surprised because I thought he meant he was going to just draw a bunch of stuff not actually come up with a list. He created the #sillyspacechallenge. A 10 day doodle challenge.