A lot has been going in this noggin of mine. There is so much going on...I've started a new diet and it has been a real challenge on my mood. I get so irritated and annoyed so easily. I feel as though I am back on those anti depressants but I am not.
At this moment, I am feeling really ashamed of myself. Yes, I am still beating myself up on things. Yes, I am still an overthinker. Yes, I am still at a loss for what I need to do. I am hoping this lifestyle change will give me more clarity and help to think more clearly.
One feeling I can't seem to shake is guilt. I feel guilty I am not a good mom, I feel guilty I am not at my full potential, I feel guilty I am letting people down, I feel guilty for letting myself hold me back, I feel guilty for letting myself feel angry, I feel guilty for being selfish, I feel guilty for not caring...and I don't know why I am this way....
Monday, February 12, 2018
Monday, February 5, 2018
3 More Completed Challenges
3 More completed challenges in the books! Wow...I made it through the 4 challenges in January. My take-aways are to be sure I am enjoying myself. 2 of the challenges were every other day so I thought I would be able to handle it. I think I just put pressure on myself. I didn't have to post everyday but I felt like I had to keep up. My favorites challenge, other than my own, was the Disney one. I had fun trying to come up with the characters in my "style." I also found I have difficulties with landscapes. It's not as intuitive for me and also utilizing all the space.
I am currently doing the magical creatures challenge mainly using my iPad Pro. I get to explore the different tools that procreate has to offer and right now I am really have fun with it. I am utilizing the background and space. Using Procreate definitely makes it easier.
I also joined the expressions challenge. This one I only plan to post after every 4 days since that is how I set up my grid. Just taking it easy. I have one other one that I may just do all the prompts at once but I haven't decide how to execute it yet. We shall see... 😏
I am still planning out my game idea and possibly do a pilot to see how it gets received. 😁
My sillydoodlenewyear
A Very Hygge January
Disney
I am currently doing the magical creatures challenge mainly using my iPad Pro. I get to explore the different tools that procreate has to offer and right now I am really have fun with it. I am utilizing the background and space. Using Procreate definitely makes it easier.
I also joined the expressions challenge. This one I only plan to post after every 4 days since that is how I set up my grid. Just taking it easy. I have one other one that I may just do all the prompts at once but I haven't decide how to execute it yet. We shall see... 😏
I am still planning out my game idea and possibly do a pilot to see how it gets received. 😁
My sillydoodlenewyear
A Very Hygge January
Disney
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